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Before the Deluge

4/15/2021

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"Before the Deluge" - mixed media on cradled wood panel, 12" x 12".  Sold.

And on the brave and crazy wings of youth they went flying around in the rain

And their feathers, once so fine, grew torn and tattered

And in the end they traded their tired wings for the resignation that living brings

And exchanged love's bright and fragile glow for the glitter and the rouge

And in a moment they were swept before the deluge.


from "Before the Deluge" - Jackson Browne


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Before the Deluge
I spent the week with Jackson Browne.

Well, not really,  but listening, watching, reading about and channeling the mojo of the man.  A super fan and collector wanted a commission (I seem to be developing a tiny niche with celebrity portraits - wahoo!) and really wanted it to express the depth she gets from the man and the music.  When I asked this super fan what she wanted the world to know about Jackson Browne, she replied: "His relentless passion for human rights & the environment- and walking his talk."   We can sure use more people like that in the world right now.
This piece makes me smile...a contemplative moment, "the resignation that living brings."

Torn and tattered feathers - perhaps many of us can relate to that?  After this year, after these lives. And yet we soar, dear reader!  I see you there, with your brave and crazy wings.  Still flying. :)
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Be a Compass

4/12/2021

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Be A Compass
"Be a Compass" - acrylic on aluminum panel, 10" x 12".  Available here and at Artfinder.


We are moving in wider circles
We are opening our circle
We are moving in wider circles
We are opening our circles

Oh be a compass
I'll be your lighthouse
Speak your words with triumph
And I will watch your mouth

I'll march with you my sister
To your place of fearing
We'll dive into those waters
Swim into the clearing

from "Wider Circles" by Rising Appalachia 
After more than a year of narrowing our circles to the smallest possible sphere, we are beginning to move in wider circles.  Not me, yet.  But the world around me - restaurants, shops, people.  Wider circles.  And soon, me, too.   

What grabs me about this song, these lyrics, is the idea of being beside someone through fear.   The concept of compass and lighthouse.  And haven't we, dear reader, marched together through this past year?  So many of you have been (and are and are becoming and will become) my lighthouse.  And if I'm lucky, I'll be a compass for someone, too.  (Disclaimer!  I can't use an actual  compass yet, but I will learn!).   The darkness is passing; the clearing is coming.  We are opening our circles.

About the art:  if you've ever painted on aluminum panel, you already know.  It's lovely and fickle all at the same time.  So fun to build layers, but so easy to lose everything if you don't make sure the layers are very dry before taking the next step.  

Tools used in this piece include brush, wedge, chopstick, wooden pick,  paper towel, hands and fingers.


So here is an entire painting, start to finish, on aluminum panel.  And the beauty is, in the final strokes, you can carve through the paint, exposing the aluminum shine and adding an unexpected texture to a piece.  Ready?  Set?  ALUMINUM!
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Waking Close to the Bone

4/9/2021

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"Waking Close to the Bone" - mixed media on cradled wood panel, 12" x 36" x 1.5".  Ready to hang (sides are painted; no. need to frame.  Hanging hardware attached).  Available here and at Artfinder.


Now, simply by waking, waves of feeling pulse close to the bone, and this continual pulse is so deep it aches. It is the ache of being alive. I used to think this ache was sadness, but now know it is deeper than not getting what I want or losing what I need. This waking close to the bone is the pulse from which both joy and sadness rise, where pain and wonder meet. Now I wake on stubborn fall days that resist the cold, I wake before the sun, the world wet with anticipation, and feel this ache, the way the Earth feels its core grind about that central fire that no one sees. It is the slight burn of being here. - MARK NEPO
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'"The slight burn of being here" - Nepo wields words in a ways that resonates deeply with me. When I am floundering for the right words, a way to cut through the muck and get to the unabashed heart of things, it is always Nepo.

​The year fearlessness, the emergence of Lola (which really means, the year of being afraid but leaping anyway, the emergence of all that I have always been but was too afraid to be) has had some unexpected consequences.  By opening my heart to see my own pain, I see the pain of others, even (and perhaps especially) those who have caused my pain.  By opening my heart to the beauty of others, I see my own extraordinariness.  And I discover it is harder to look at what is bright and beautiful in me than to look at what is broken and flawed.  I strive to wake close to the bone...where pain and wonder meet​.  It feels very close.
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Waking Close to the Bone

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About the art:  This week in the studio, I embrace the peculiar again.  Allowing a portrait to jump off into wherever it wants to go, shushing the inner critic and seeking the emotion, without sacrificing composition and color.    Charcoal and acrylic paint on unprimed wood panel.  Liberal use of water, wedge, squeegee and fingers.  An oddly-edged Catalyst wedge provides striations in the paint.  Embracing the color of putty, and how it sings when pushed up against cadmium red light and magenta.

It is such a great joy when something I bring into the world somehow helps another birth her own creation.  In this case, the outrageously amazing art of Matilda Carr-Betts.  
Carr-Betts is a 16 year-old student of  artist Deborah Gregg in Florida.  She used one of my distorted self-portraits to inspire her own piece (left), and gave me permission to share it here.   Keep. your eyes out for this up and coming artist.  She is already embracing her inner wild.
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Someday You

4/5/2021

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Someday You
"Someday You" - acrylic, charcoal and oil pastel on cradled wood panel, 8" x 8" x .75".  Ready to hang (sides are painted; no need to frame.  Hanging wire is attached).  Available here and at Artfinder.


Someday you,
what is left of you,
will be flensed of this marriage.

Angular wristbone's arthritis,
cracked harp of ribcage,
blunt of heel,
opened bowl of the skull,
twin platters of pelvis--
each of you will leave me behind,
at last serene.
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- from "My Skeleton" by Jane Hirshfield
I'm like a dog with a bone.

Or rather, my dog with my bones.  Which he was, while I was off hiking.  He climbed up on the table, grabbed a few choice pieces (bird pelvis, elk hoof, deer femur, vertebrae) and had himself a feast while I was away.  Sigh.  I can't blame him.  It was there.

Things come and things go.  

And Hirshfield's words, as I contemplate bone and legacy and life, are a perfect fit.  

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the artist learning to see

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About the art:  inspired by a deer pelvis found by my partner on one of our hikes, this painting used a notanized bone photo (left) as a jumping off point for an abstract.  The organic shapes, curves and hard lines of  form and shadow hint at, but do not tell, the whole story when combined and colored and texturized, allowing the viewer to fill in and interpret.

The requisite 80 million layers of paint, applied with brush and fingers, transformed with water and squeegee and paper towel.  Finished with a hint of charcoal and vibrant oil pastel.




​A little lovely surprise this week, as my witchy and wonderful "Adelaide" was featured in an article for children's book authors at The Charmed Studio.  Check it out!  Thea's blog is OUTRAGEOUSLY good!
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Boneyard

4/1/2021

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"Boneyard". - acrylic on arches 300 lb watercolor paper, 30" x 22".  Available here and at Artfinder.


We all know that fear is a desolate boneyard where our dreams go to desiccate in the hot sun.
- from Big Magic, Elizabeth Gilbert


It is no-fear year for me.

That doesn't mean I won't be afraid (if only!), but it does mean I won't let fear prevent me from doing, dreaming, thinking, feeling or trying anymore.  It tries, that pesky, persistent fear.  Tries to fill me with anxiety, dread, stomach-ache and shallow breath at the thought of attempting something I haven't done before.  But I don't want to live in a desolate boneyard.
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Boneyard
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And the bones....they keep appearing.  In front of my eyes, at my feet.  I bring them home, reminders and relics.  Wait for them to talk to me.  When Gilbert's quote landed in my lap, just as I'd finished googling "how to clean found bones" (desiccating in the hot sun is the preferred method, by the way), I smiled.  Bone-talk.

If you've followed my journey, dear reader, you know bones are a theme in my life.  That my very bones have taken some hits, been stitched and glued and caged back together and are, well, something to consider when I do anything.  The universe reminds me that those same bones will be here long after my essence is gone.  What do I want them to say to others?


​About the art:  this, my friends, is a failed painting.  Or rather, a rescued one.  I set out to paint one thing (plan-fully, and as if I were in control in any way) and ended up painting another. Because once I began listening to the paint, it wanted to SING a boneyard of blown-down trees in the forest.  It did not want to play at the beach!  And so the video is how it began.  It went sideways after the camera was off.  This is what happens when I try to control, instead of flow.  Thank goodness for paper that takes a heap load of paint.
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REBUS

3/29/2021

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​​This rebus—slip and stubbornness,
bottom of river, my own consumed life--
when will I learn to read it
plainly, slowly, uncolored by hope or desire?   
Not to understand it, only to see.

As water given sugar sweetens, given salt grows salty,   
we become our choices.
Each yes, each no continues,
this one a ladder, that one an anvil or cup.

The ladder leans into its darkness.   
The anvil leans into its silence.   
The cup sits empty.

How can I enter this question the clay has asked?

from Rebus by Jane Hirschfield
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"Rebus" - acrylic and charcoal on cradled wood panel, 24" x 18" x 1.5"..  Ready to hang (sides are painted; no need to frame.  Hanging wire is attached). Available here and at Artfinder.

We become our choices.

There is an inclination to philosophize while hiking.  To untangle the experience of life and reframe it in the expansive view of sky and sea and soil.  And there it is easy to look back at a life and say - yes, this.  I became my choices.  And I still become my choices.  Except now, sometimes, if I am listening well, the choice becomes obvious - the moon full, information revealed, choice easy.  I choose. I become.  Slip and stubbornness give way to slide and surrender.  I become.

​About the art:  beginning with a photo from a recent hike at Nehalem Spit, run through the Notanizer app to provide a basic composition.  Drawing with three colors of charcoal and then blending with a wet brush and titanium white and buff.  Adding some darks with acrylic paint.  The video jumps off from here - paper towel, rubber wedge, squeegee, water sprayer, big fluffy brush, regular brushes and fingers.  Resisting the urge to overly define while trying to soften edges and create movement.  Falling in love with the sea.
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CALL ME Nomad Woman

3/25/2021

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"Nomad Woman" - acrylic and charcoal on Arches 300 lb watercolor paper, 22" x 30".  Available here and at Artfinder.

got fire shut up in my bones/ & saltwater shut up in my lungs/ & got my soul shut up in some flesh/ & got this body shut up in a wound/& that wound stays wide open/ wide open/ remember/ i leave from & return to the same place/ always/ no/ where/ now/ here/ call me nomadwoman/ remember/ i be no/ madwoman.

​ - from 
dna is just anotha theory for reincarnation: me, sitting in a burning tree DESTINY HEMPHILL

It matters what we're called.

In some cultures, what we're called changes with milestones, passage of time, transformations.  Here, we go from nicknames to full names to more nicknames and sometimes names we wish we weren't called at all in the heat of the moment.  Names can stick.

And sometimes the names we're given at birth don't fit as well as we age and grow and change and become.
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A few close to me have known that my inner name is Lola. 

Lola is fierce and feisty and confident and wildly unfettered and brave.  Lola is not afraid.

In the past few years of radical change in my life (some by choice, some by happenstance, misfortune or the choices of others) I have become more Lola than Jen.  As I began reimagining my cyber art pages, my personal pages began waving their arms and demanding attention.  And so instagram (personal) is now instagram.com@thewanderingsoflola.  And Facebook followed as Facebook.com/thewanderingsoflola.

I was overwhelmed by the support, encouragement and acceptance of this change.  And tickled by those who now call me Lola.  It feels like anything is possible - anything can be.  Anything can become.  ​Lola knows.
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​About the art:  This piece happened spontaneously.  A late evening spent purusing Pinterest boards of avant-garde fashion.  An antlered woman in a white lace gown inspired the pose.  Bones - of animals and of trees - collected on a beach hike informed the stark color palette.  A quick sketch with charcoal, then very wet titanium white to rough in the form.  Ultramarine blue and raw umber and titanium white only, brushed on in thin, watery washes.  Resisting the urge to complete the background...allowing her to emerge, half formed as if in mid-transformation.
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The Long Fall Back to the Center

3/22/2021

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"The Long Fall Back to the Center" - acrylic on gallery wrapped canvas, 16" x 20" x 1.5".  Ready to hang (sides are painted; no need to frame.  Hanging hardware attached). Available here and at Artfinder.


Tossed under the tree
The cracked bones

Of the owl's most recent feast
Lean like shipwreck, starting

The long fall back to the center--
The seepage, the flowing,

The equity, sooner or later
In the shimmering leaves

The rat will learn to fly, the owl

Will be devoured.

- from "Bone Poem" by Mary Oliver
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hike treasures
The thing about lost hikes (wandering places where few feet have been) is the preponderance of bones.

And the more my eyes are trained to see in the wilderness (shadows, hidden paths, lichens, scat, briars, poison oak, loose rock) the. more I see the bones.  It seems they are there for me to find - messages from spirits long gone, reminders of the preciousness of life, invitations to get close to the center of everything.

On a recent hike, the bones of a juvenile deer lay strewn about near a dry creek bed.  Dainty, delicate, decayed. She came home with me, this little one.  Cleaned gently with bleach and soft brush.  Dried in the sunlight on the kitchen counter.  Weird?  Maybe.  Exquisitely beautiful - yes.

Her stark coloring inspired this painting, in which I set about to capture just the bones of an image. 

About the art: I began using an old time photo as a reference (run through the Notanizer, of course) and selected a color palette from painting by Lita Cabellut (which reminded me of the bones).  

I began with a 3 minute charcoal sketch and 5 minutes of shaping the composition with titanium white running into the charcoal.  This video jumps off from there.  Red, green, buff, titanium white and black charcoal.  A tiny dollop of yellow ochre.  Resisting the urge to overly define.  Allowing the viewer's eye to complete portions of the figure.  Liberal use of rubber wedge to carve back into the wet paint.

Finishing touches were not captured on video.  That's what happens when the artist is in charge of the camera. :)
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Fight Like a Girl

3/18/2021

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"Fight Like a Girl" (a collaborative diptych) - 20" x 34" x 1.75".  Mixed media on deep cradled wood panel.  Ready to hang (Sides are painted; no need to frame.  Hanging hardware attached.)  This piece was created by Trina Tarlton and Jen Jovan.  Available here.

I have walked this body to the rim of its ends
From there I have seen everything else

It was there I felt the flexing of the bicep
And the sudden swing of hips

The traffic island of the heart


A basilica of stone waiting for skin
I stood on the rims and carved the tree rings in

​ - Jenny Hval and Susanna, "I Have Walked This Body"


This is what happens when one artist dares another to push boundaries.  Things get, well, pushed.

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Trina suggested a collaboration.  We had a general idea...but then blew that out of the pond and just let it run wild.  Between us, we have a lot of mutual history - spinal injury, baddassery, big love and big loss.  And art.  

So sending boards through the mail and painting on another person's work - whoa!  But we did it.  And it is something neither one of us would have independently dared to do.  We've redefined how to fight like a girl.  

Enjoy the video - turn up the volume, see what happens when artists collide. 
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The Inverse Distance of Our Proximity

3/15/2021

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The Inverse Distance of Our Proximity
"The Inverse Distance of Our Proximity" (a triptych) - acrylic on cradled wood panel, 8" x 24" x .75".  Ready to hang (sides are painted; no need to frame.  Hanging hardware is attached.). Available here and at Artfinder.

Our human essence lies not in arrival, but in being almost there, we are creatures who are on the way, our journey a series of impending anticipated arrivals. We live by unconsciously measuring the inverse distances of our proximity: an intimacy calibrated by the vulnerability we feel in giving up our sense of separation. - DAVID WHYTE
I am almost there.

On the way.  Arrival anticipated.  Losing my sense of separation.

The world conspires with me.  Beauty beckons.  Inspiration appears.  Paint flows.  The words arrive to marry with the art.  The time opens up to curate them together.  A week of what could have been snafus, odd occurrences and off mojo turns into a domino fall of positivity.  I lean back into the universe, feel its arms softly hold me, and breathe.


​About the art:  acrylic applied to unprimed birchwood panel using rubber wedge, squeegee, chopsticks, fingers and paper towels.  Paying attention to one color talking to (or arguing with) another. The requisite 80 million layers.  A spot of cadmium red.  A sigh.  Yes!

I've had a few reader requests for background tips.  So here's a quick video showing one way to begin building backgrounds (similar to today's piece but larger).  The unprimed wood allows a lot of sub-texture and the absorption of paint into crevices and woodgrain. 

I wonder what background music Wonder Mike chose for this one?

​NEW FLASH!  My instagram account is now instagram.com/jenjovanart.   It is being initially curated by the outrageously talented Tricia French, whose eye sees me and my art in ways I never imagined.  I hope you'll take a gander and maybe linger awhile...more to come!
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