Let's follow the logic....you might want to be a MotoGP racer, for example (yes, I am obsessed with this sport - thanks to Brian). But once you're out there on the track, going 200 mph with nothing but a leather jacket between you and the gravel, you decide maybe it just isn't worth the pain (abrasions, broken bones, concussions, fiery death) and so you say "meh" and pursue another dream. Which means you really didn't want to be a MotoGP racer in the first place, perhaps.
About the painting: beginning with a grayscale underpainting in gesso and a basic drawing in Posca paint pens, followed by many layers of acrylic, acrylic mixed with gesso and water-based inks liberally spritzed and toweled and scraped. Finished with oil pastel highlights. The title, also from the book, is taken from this quote: "...negative emotions are a call to action. When you feel them, it's because you are supposed to do something."
Jen Jovan and her imaJENation