This piece started as an experimental watercolor and an underwater sea creature painting. Oh yes! Sharks, manatees and octopi cavorted in a tangle of seaweed and bubbles. But I didn't love it and so kept tossing chalky paint and burnishing and marking until this star-gazing countenance appeared...the sea became the heavens and the creatures swam away. Following the paint is a twisty-turning path, filled with surprises. The one constant between the beginning and the ending of this piece is the orange. And if you're curious, here is a brief history of that color.
Ultimately, this version resonated with me. In the current chapter of Mark Nepo's The One Life We're Given, he delves into the three fears: fear of the past, of the present and of the future, and of a time when he was paralyzed by all three occurring simultaneously. The silver lining of allowing yourself to fully experience fear is to be stripped of all the tools and tactics for dealing with them until "the chance to rely on no tools at all but on the substance of [your] personhood, trusting it [will] eventually meet the wind like a wing." It's all there - right inside us. The very substance of our personhood is the only tool we need to traverse the land of fear.
Let's meet the wind like a wing today. And raise a pint to our guests!
Jen Jovan and her imaJENation